get up from dreamland..

finally updated my blog...ouch...hurt again...she rejected me again...she pull me up from the dreamland...i tot we can chat happily...but...all things happen not as i hoping for...i dunno wat to do...she ask me to stop it otherwise its so hard to talk to me anymore....swt....i dunhav any option...jux can followed wat she said....sometime u cant get wat u wan in ur life....phew....i m down....the feeling is still there..i admit it...but...i will try to put it down....and start a new life...i rather spend my times on working and basketball....dis is a lesson for me...i dunno i should hate her...or jux treat her as my fren...i cannot treat as ntg happen before...well..mayb u all think i "small gas" or "xiu hei" in cantonese....but it become worst and worst...same to her...she jux treat me as a net fren now....no more texting or phone talk...even msn also like simply reply me...i feel it la ok....she is different compare to last time...haiz...time will be the best cure for anything included myself...but..how long it will take me to forget all bout her?phew....sienx.....

Be In My Heart..

Look, dat Tuesday night was one of the worst nights we've ever had, and i jux wan u to know that no matter wat happens,i will never stop loving u. I know i said some stuff that i reeli regret, n i try my best to do right by u,n i will continue to do so.I just can't let u slip away from me like that. I love you, and i hope u can forgive me for all my faults...u are everything,i swear to God i wan u in my life.I love u more and more wit each day passing n it eases me to know as tomolow approaches,that i will love u more than yesterday and tomolow will be more then today.My love for u cannot be measured by words alone as love does express my true feelings for u.U and onli u hav given me so much hope and hav made me realize how much i wan you!U show the true meaning of how a man should treat a woman.The years will be a test,but ntg will keep me from loving u,or from being by ur side.I love u more than u could even know,u are my world.I just wan to let u know how much i love all that u are and will be.U are truly my love,my soul mate,and my best friend.Right now u live far away from me and i reeli mean it killing me,i dunwan to lose u to anyone else or anything that anyone wan to say about u.I wan u to know i love u from the deepest part of my heart.I m always so lost for words when it comes to u,i jux wish there was another way that we could be together.I wan u n always will and there is ntg dat will ever change the way my feel about you...U will always be in my heart...

世界末日-信乐团

要抱你 才能够入睡
思念你 只剩下疲惫
爱过你 才懂得甜美
再爱谁 也都无味
但这世界 太多暧昧
只有你我清楚而绝对
绝不留 后路去退
爱到爆裂 冲破了极限
世界末日不够远
不是爱你的终点
就算眼睛看不见
我的手会记住你的脸
世界末日那一天
有你陪在我身边
就算耳朵听不见
拥抱就是最美的诺言


要抱你 才能够入睡
思念你 只剩下疲惫
爱过你 才懂得甜美
再爱谁 也都无味
这世界 太多暧昧
只有你我清楚而绝对
绝不留 后路去退
爱到爆裂 冲破了极限
世界末日不够远
不是爱你的终点
就算眼睛看不见
我的手会记住你的脸
世界末日那一天
有你陪在我身边
就算耳朵听不见
拥抱就是最美的诺言
第一次觉得放不下
第一次心情像海洋
第一次无力抵挡
第一次会那么的渴望
世界末日不够远
不是爱你的终点
就算眼睛看不见
我的手会记住你的脸
世界末日那一天
有你陪在我身边
就算耳朵听不见
拥抱就是最美的诺言
I don’t wanna say good-bye.
I just wanna live my life with you....

I CANT STOP LOVING YOU....

Everyday,every moment dat goes by i think of u...my brain tells me to giv up,but my brain says i cant stop loving u...i spend all day dreaming of the moment u would say u feel the same way,as much as i try to pretend,the truth is,i cant stop loving u...i dunno how to stop....i miss everything bout u...i mean i finally meet the right person and she is not available...i m in love wit u but i cant b wit u...u can keep on denying it...u can keep hiding from it...everyday i ask myself y...y do i feel dis way?y cant i stop loving u?i wan u to noe dat u will always have a special place in my heart,i am not trying to make u feel bad or push u further away,i am jux trying to make u understand wat in my heart....i hate arguing wit u,i am not naturally an angry person..our argument was caused from so many things...my insecurities,my lack of self worth,the selfish wan to be the onli one dat makes u smile and toss a sparkle across ur eyes...i noe the blame is mostly mine...i m soli for not taking the time to be patient wit u...to sit and listen and understand the way u feel...i noe dat i will never noe the things ur fren share wit u and u share wit them and therefore ur relationship wit them is of a different importance than urs and mine...i m soli for hurting u and beating u down so often....if anyone show a lack of respect in dis relationship den i suppose it is me who is to blame...i feel like u dunwan to be near wit me...u dunwan to touch me after wat i have said and done towards u...If the ringer were on right now I would know that there was a chance for me to come to your side and say this in person. Anything to let you know that this is me saying I'm sorry, YS, I'm so, so sorry. If you could ever forgive me it would not go unappreciated, if not then it will not go misunderstood.This is all I can say, and if you ask me to, I will say no more ever again to you.I just wish you to know that my selfish will has broken, my barriers have fallen, and my love for you has come into full view. I never want to have us turn and go away.... I love you with all my heart ... and I will always love you, T.Y.S

沉闷的一天。。。。

又是无聊的一天。。整天坐在电脑前等待时光的流逝。。。经常告诉自己不要再想起她了。。可是每当拿起电话时，总是自然而然的想写信息给她。。可是又怕会打扰到她，不知道最近她还好吗？应该有新男友了吧。。。其实人可以选择做一件事情，或者不做。。但结果必须自己承受，想躲都躲不了。。。所以人们求神问佛，祈求指点迷津，目的就是想早点知道命运的结果。。路本来就是在前面，不管答案如何，路只有一条，问题是这条路是生路？还是死路？其实生路还是死路都是自己选的，只是在选的时候你不知道。。当大限临头的时候，你没想到结果是自己一手造成的。。。人到了绝路可以求神，但如果连神也到了绝路，可以求谁呢？路是自己选的，要怨就怨自己，即使满天神佛，也只是无能为力的旁观者。。。人就是这样，得不到的就嫉妒。。。有时候选错了，比没有选择更痛苦。。当初我骗她，人人说我自私。。其实有谁不自私呢？我骗她，因为我想挽留这一切。。在那时我已经没得选择。。而人骗人，常常只是为了微不足道的理由。。。你说我自私，还是全部人也一样那么自私呢？看得见，听得见的可能都是假的，只有自己的感觉才是最真实。。。无奈她仍然选择相信其他人。。。其实两个人在一起就好比一道加法题，如果加起来等于更多的快乐。。就说明加对了。。如果加起来等于猜疑，压力，就应该重新加一次。。。那个人是我欠她最多最多的一个，我不介怀人家在她面前说了什么，我只介怀自己所做过的东西罢了。。她对我很好。。不过我一而再再而三的没有珍惜她。。而导致她永远都不想见我。。。她曾经在我心中很重要。。。但是，我也令到她很失望。。haiz..也应该醒了。。。当自己没福气吧！去打球了。。。回来继续吧。。。